For some reason, I have the worst luck lately.


So lets just explore my misfortune here. First off, I bought 34 coffees from Timmies in total this Roll Up the Rim season. Seeing as the odds are advertised as "1 in 6", I'm a little shocked that I was greeted with a "please play again" 34 times... I won't be doing any gambling or bets based on a coin toss any time soon. If life were COD, I'd be playing against lady luck, and her k/d ratio would be AMAZING.


Last night, during on a drunken whim, I decided to set fire to a plastic water bottle... let's just explain this story in short with a nice little equation. Drunkenness+fire, already a bad combination. Drunkenness+fire+water bottle=toxic chemical gas. A worse combination. Now let's add my eyeball. We are finally brought to the equation: drunkenness+fire+water bottle=toxic chemical gas+eyeball=24 hours+3 hospital visits+searing pain+near blindness=an eye freezing and pirate swag.


All in all, don't believe I'll base my life purchases on the assumption I'll win the lottery. Or, y'know, ever play with fire again.

I've already posted about how important I think meanings behind tattoos are. 


I introduced my first tattoo - "No se arrepiente, solo el amor" on my back. So I thought I would write a little bit about another. The second tattoo says "Don't carry the world upon your shoulders" across both of my shoulders. It starts on my left, and ends on my right.


I've always loved the Beatles, firstly. I have a whole sleeve planned based on my love and connection to music, that includes many references to the Beatles. "Hey Jude" has been a    song that lifted me up when I was in my deepest, darkest ruts of life. Most of these ruts were because I tried to carry way too much of the world upon my shoulders. I'm a problem solver. I like to solve all problems, right here and right now. Not only my own problems, but those of others too. I am way too concerned with the issues in the world and with myself, and it tears me apart when I can't solve them right away.


The tattoo is a reminder to be free. To concentrate on me, before I can help anyone else. It's a reminder to stay happy, and that there is a way out of every rut, if I just keep calm and carry on.

Everything is theory. Nothing we know or believe in truly IS.


From the moment we are born we are conditioned. We are told stories, and fed beliefs and ideals and customs. Things we hear about religion, society, the universe all become what we know. What we think is real. We are subliminally boxed in, yet we think that the ideas and thoughts and actions we have are our own. We only push the limits when we try to think free. We have learned growing up that there is a realism that nothing can exist outside of.


The ones of us who see no limits to possibility are usually classed as crazy. But why? Why is everything we know today the only possibility? For example, why is it either God or the Big Bang that created us? Why is it only possible that our planet has living beings? Why is it unacceptable to weigh a certain amount? Why do we need a governing body? Why is money our only currency and source of wealth? Why is the education system so crucial? Why do we need technology? Why can't monster, mutants, superpowers and superheroes be hiding amongst us? Why can't there be alternate dimensions where our souls live on past our bodies expiration date?


Everything we know is a theory, created by our ancestors and the people who lived before us. When society consisted of very few people, and one person shared their ideals of anything, the rest followed. They then passed that on to their successors, their kin, their friends and the theories became reality. 


We could be living in a Utopian world, where reality has no limits, where society has no restrictions. If the world were reborn, without government, without wealth; a place where society sustains by it's own hands, we would be so much happier and free.

More than this, we could discover so much more if we didn't cancel out possibilities that stand outside the box of the modern "norm". We could advance so much more quickly as intellectual beings and as a living race. We are just ignorant to anything other than what has existed as "real", "logical", "possible" and "within reason".


If you can break from the box, break from the conditioning you've been given, you can see that reality is infinite and limitless. Everything is a possibility, because nothing is actually known.

I'm a strong believer that all tattoos should hold meaning behind them.


If you're going to be getting something done to you that is permanent, it should reflect yourself. It should have deep meaning, and a thought behind it. You should never act on impulse when it comes to tattoos.


When I got my first tattoo, it was sort of impulsive. The quote was something I had in my mind for over a year, and had really found personal meaning in, but it was done unprofessionally. Unfortunately, it's almost gone now. I plan to get it redone, perhaps in another spot now that I've had time to plan other designs. The quote says - illegibly now - "No se arrepienté, solo el amor", which, in English, means "No regrets, just love".


Simply said, the meaning behind it came from the idea that so many people claim to regret or hate people they have given their heart to in their lives. No only in a romantic way, but in any lifetime relationship. Friendships, family, etc. People often get hurt, and say they wish they "never met" a certain person or never let them in. I don't think that you should regret any relationship or any love in your life. Even something that didn't last, something that broke your heart, gave you an experience. You loved them at one point, and they made you happy and impacted your life. Every person you meet, whether it be a long-term connection or a one-time-meeting, affects you as a person and impacts what life path fate leads you down. 


I use this quote a lot in my life. And after being hurt by my first love - we ALL have this story to tell - I realized that even though he let me down and hurt me, he is a huge part of who I am today.


No regrets, just love.